What Thankfulness Looks Like Tonight

Tonight I'm sitting with an open book 

Waiting for me to write down 

All the things I'm thankful for 

I try to think of all the things 

From air, and water, and laughing 

To books, family, and friends

I try to list all the things God gave me 

But I would be lying if I didn't say

That what's filling my mind tonight 

Is what I haven't got 

The way I jump when my phone buzzes 

Hoping it's them calling me 

The way I look on my feed 

Wishing there was a post 

Saying where they've been 

I can't help but feeling the empty space

Like a hole in me today 

And it's hard to be grateful for holes 

But tonight that book's reminding me 

That God gave me everything for a reason 

And the hole is there to remind me 

Of the God who fixes all things 

And I know that He'll hold me until He does

Sometimes gratefulness doesn't look like beaming smiles 

Or long lists of things you love 

Sometimes it looks like tears 

Like three words written on a page 

God's got me