I wrote this poem a while back and it's something that is very dear to me. A testimony to God's goodness. It was too special to share for a while, but I thought now was a good time.
Retrospect
I’m looking at the beginning
From the end
My heart seems to skip a beat
At all the things that have changed
At sixteen I was trusting
Happy and peppy
I was self-confident
Then it all fell apart
And I did too
At sixteen and seventeen
I was broken
Heartsick and undone
I felt inside out and useless
I drew closer to God
In a way I never had before
I clung to Him
And I grew up
I lost part of myself
And I gained a lot of hurt
And a lot of wisdom
At eighteen the hurt eased
Into a background ache
There, but not constant
I worked on recovering
And moving on
And coming to terms
Of living differently
At nineteen
Everything changed again
And healing beyond hope
Came to rest on me
And now I’ve got to learn
How to live with a full heart
One that is so different
Then when I started this journey
Everything is different
And as much as this changing hurt
I wouldn’t change it
God gave me this cross to bear
And He choose to take it away
My cup overflows
As I look in retrospect
And see how much He taught me
How much He loves me
And how He held me
Very nice Mikayla. Hope you are staying cool. Hot here in New York.
ReplyDeleteMarion
Thanks! Trying my best, but it's pretty hot here, so not really. ;D
DeleteThank You Mikayla for this beautiful post. God Bless.
ReplyDeleteMarilyn
You are welcome!
DeleteI love this.
ReplyDelete~Katja L.
I love this so much! What a beautiful testimony of your growth!
ReplyDeleteHanne || losingthebusyness.wordpress.com
Thanks! God's been good!
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