Tonight I'm sitting with an open book
Waiting for me to write down
All the things I'm thankful for
I try to think of all the things
From air, and water, and laughing
To books, family, and friends
I try to list all the things God gave me
But I would be lying if I didn't say
That what's filling my mind tonight
Is what I haven't got
The way I jump when my phone buzzes
Hoping it's them calling me
The way I look on my feed
Wishing there was a post
Saying where they've been
I can't help but feeling the empty space
Like a hole in me today
And it's hard to be grateful for holes
But tonight that book's reminding me
That God gave me everything for a reason
And the hole is there to remind me
Of the God who fixes all things
And I know that He'll hold me until He does
Sometimes gratefulness doesn't look like beaming smiles
Or long lists of things you love
Sometimes it looks like tears
Like three words written on a page
God's got me