Shouldn't You Love Today?

Just some thoughts on the pressure to join different movements, and days to talk about certain issues. Typically I try to keep my poetry happier, but this is just what I've been feeling lately and I wanted to share. 

Shouldn't you love today?

Shouldn't you love this movement? 

They do a lot of good

They change the world

Shouldn't you love that? 

Shouldn't you speak up? 

Shouldn't you take a stand? 

They need a reminder 

They need a voice 

But I can't

I'm trembling on the inside

Every time this day comes

I feel like I should speak 

But I'm not like you 

Your pain caused you to be bold 

Your hurt turned into helping 

Mine left a bruise 

And made me shelter it 

Talking about it doesn't help 

And speaking out isn't just painful 

It's debilitating 

And I'm not ready for that  

Please don't tell me my silence is weak 

Please don't tell me I'm hurting people 

Please don't say you're saving a life

And I'm just watching them die 

'cause you don't know me

I've got my own pain 

And you've got yours 

I want to love today 

But I can't 

I'm not ready for it

So please don't ask me to 

I'll tell you when I can

Go change the world 

I'll join you when I'm ready